Is it possiable to love someone but hate their guts? Why are things to confusing? why cant they just be easy? hate the word fate. i feel like i have no control over my life. everyone says "if its fate, it will work out". well, how the fuck do you know that? what if i make a shitty half ass move and fuck everything up? ever thought about that? didnt think so. --- everyone seems do be finding love so easy. why is it so hard for me? am i to picky? am i not pretty enough? am i not skinny enough? am i not nice enough? or bitchy enough? or good enough? it seems like everywhere i look i see people together...holding hands...or kissing...or hugging... where is my hug? where is my kiss? who's gunna hold my hand? I feel so incredibly selfish. and i know its not just me that feels this way but... latly ive got this feeling that everytime somthing seems to be going well, it crashes and burns. --- People seem to hate me even more and more since i've become well known on myspace. But people have also been trying to be just like me because they thinks thats the cool thing. i mean, its cool being a role model for people but, it rediculous when people cut and dye their hair to be just like mine. this is why im dying my hair soon.. NOTE TO EVERYONE: dont love me just because im famous on myspace and have 3k friends. -kapowkristen {{EDIT}} here are some pictures of my heros. 
Jeffree Star ^^ 
Raquel Reed^^ 
Kat Von D^^ 
Audery Kitching^^ 
Kiki Kannibal ^^ [i dont care if people hate her. shes gorgous and amazing] 
Zui Suicide^^ 
Paramore^^ -kapowkristen 
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